I've been a fan of a spanish song : "Lucha de gigantes" by Nacha Pop.
It was last year that karin suggested me this song, when she was on her Colombian trip.
Finally found it's English translation, here it goes :)

a giants' joust
turns the air
into natural gas

a wild duel warns me

how close I am

of going into an noutrageous world
I feel my fragility

some nightmare
running away

with a beast after me

tell me everything's a lie

just a silly dreamand
nothing more

I'm afraid of enormity

where nobody hears my voice

stop the deception

don't try to hide

that you've never tripped
while moving around

paper monster

I don't know
who I'm up against

or is there
somebody else here?

I believe in the terrible ghosts

of some strange place

and in my foolishness to make you
burst into laughter


In an outrageous world
I feel your fragility

stop the deception

don't try to hide
that you've never tripped
while moving around

Paper monster

I don' tknow
who I'm up against

lets leave pain behind.

Thanks to Raisa,
http://to-be-fixed.blogspot.com/2009/02/lucha-de-gigantes-nacha-pop.html

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As Bhavesh reminds " Aaj ke din Mumbai me flood aai thi 2004 me "

This day has tagged itself as one of the most memorable and happiest day of my life.
A Reconciliation, wow, the most amazing thing that has happened in past two years !

Well, first of all to start with; many happy returns of the day Srishti :) hope you've an effluent future ahead, and get an eloquent success in every sphere of life. You've been the most lateral entry into my life, and it's nearly a year, since I've known you.

Due to circumstances, I'm not able to gift you anything, but I hope my love will always be there for you, and whenever you'll need my presence as a tranquillizer, I'll be there, I'll be there for you girl.

Now, the big thing ! yeah, we reconciled, after damn two years, we finally had a group chat on my facebook status message :) The old school friends, the studious group, and yeah Harshit, who was seriously out of touch with everyone, replied ! I'm gonna meet him in evening. I'm gonna keep an archive of that chat, I'm so damn happy today. I've got my old group back :) If I was floating in air during evening then certainly I'm on cloud 9 this time :) Yay, Srish, your birthday made the day for me !

Last day for bhaida in Delhi, you know what bhaida, you suck ! damn you, you can't even say a good bye before leaving :( Adieu, hope you do well in that alien city..... I miss you so much, I've never been able to tell you, you're the most respected person in my eyes after mom and dad. Ya, I know, I'm also not doing anything, it's my fault too, but bhaida....


Now Playing : Layla (Acoustic Version) - Eric Clapton


PS : http://paste-it.net/private/g5a364a/

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Just having one of the best ginger tea :) on this fine rain-spooked evening :) listening to "been here before" by Jeremy Enigk, this song has that peculiar stuff, it always make me happy. Like it sooth you and drags out all the good feeling, a positive glow on you.

I dunno, what it feels like when you're high on LSD and then plugged into some of the floyd's song, but I know it'd be similar to this, getting high without drugs with good things around you :D

I'll miss this life soon. Spending the few last days at home, then again the same damn college, and the same nasty Maggi :P

Missing you bhaida :(

Those diamond days
A thousand strands of sunlight in her eyes.

Now I wanna give away what I've taken back.
Step away with you toward the night.

Hold me in your eyes or suddenly deny
I empathize.
Hurry up and sleep, to the night you go.

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Could I've ever imagined on a serious note, that life can be so random; huff !
I know with time everything changes, but such a hiatus on a relation, and from both sides ?
Well that's how it is going, a damn pause :|

The verve inside me has lost somewhere, straightforward example can be taken from my unattended blog, it's all just crappy thoughts flooding inside my already sick mind.

Just trying to revive things again, on a road to home again :)

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aaine me apna hi aks dekhta tha
na jaane kab chehra badal gaia

Bought around 4 novels last month from landmark, yeah it boozed me again. I desperately wanted to have poppies of Arvind Gosh, however as usual I was running off budget in an alien city. Well there was one novel amidst the collection, and that by an Indian author Novoneel Chakraborty titled A thing beyond forever. This book left a vivid impression on me, not because the book was so greatest of all time, or if the author was famous enough, the only reason was because somehow i felt that book close enough to me.
The tag-line " the reward for every true love is not love" attracted me at the first glance.

A must read book :) read more about book from
http://nbconline.blogspot.com/2008/07/thing-beyond-forever.html

Following excerpts from the book elucidating the dairy of Raen.

And yeah, I'm back to blogging again, was facing some glitches with computers, so was off the beat. :)

13th September

Papa has never hurt anybody's feeling ( i can bet my life on it), has not thought evil of anyone at any time, has never done anything in an illegal or sinful manner, never used foul language against anybody; he did all his duties to the best of his abilities and perhaps even more. And after all this what does God do ? Leave him with no option but to cry in front of his own son. I hate you, God. Not because you are making a hell out of my life but you played with a person who deserved your blessing. You always do that, don't you ? You tease the person who deserves your utmost care. You test only those who walk the right path. You design impediments only for those who have the capability of doing something in life. You screw those who are good to others and care to be human.

There are people who, even in today's world, place all their trust in you. And what do you do ? Make a mockery of their trust, belief and faith directing them towards an emotional crevasse. Your best creation has become your favorite joke now, isn't it ? Last night even I cried after a long time. I don't know what exactly triggered it but when i calmed down I realized I wasn't crying only for dada. I was crying for myself too. For the slap and the humiliation, for parting from my kolkata friends, for having to come to Guwahati when everything was going so smoothly in kolkata, for having to witness my ma's tears and papa's and perhaps for being such a bloody helpless mass of life. I cried for anything and everything.

Doctor say dada is disabled. I believe, so is everyone in some or the other. Else pain and suffering would not have plagued the society. I am feeling damn sick. I know life isn't fancy show. Sooner or later all get jailed by it. It's up to them how they bail themselves out. I guess I got to find a way out too. But seriously I do have something to tell God : It's tough to be God, I know but mind you it's tougher to be human in this crazy fucking world of yours. Fuck you. FUCK you. FUCK YOU

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